today isnt a good day for me. surprisingly its not a good day when i gotten 3 new pairs of shoes(2 for cny, 1 for now cus my slipper spoillled) im not going into all the details on why it wasnt a good day this time. at home had some argument. then i watched dance videos on youtube. at first i was enjoying it, watchiing all the movement, the chero, the extcsy feeling etc... but come to think of it, i realise i wont get the chance to dance like them, even though now im still holding onto some hope but i think i might not be able to. im afriad if i go learn now, my grades might drop and im afraid to go alone. lol. sound stupid? maybe. i wanted to go oschool to learn for so long, asked quite a number of my friends to acc me. some made broken promises, some at first say no then in the end found out they join without me and some just dont want. i think its just me bah.. cannot be evedryone around me like that. anyways, i guess i wont be learning it any time soon. starting to feel abit alone even when i know im not. i dont get much help from others when it comes to school work, my artwork and my extra learning. gosh. who knows i might be more alone then i though i was.....

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I might be feeling like what someone said. that because my past crushes, bestfriends and friends have hurt me so much that i now expected it with everyone. that i think that everyone will hurt me as much as before. then maybe i keep pushing others to the limit, to test them or something. i dont know why im doing all these. i hate being confuse..... haiis. i dont know what to think about this matter how to react. im hating all these

today isnt a good day for me. surprisingly its not a good day when i gotten 3 new pairs of shoes(2 for cny, 1 for now cus my slipper spoillled) im not going into all the details on why it wasnt a good day this time. at home had some argument. then i watched dance videos on youtube. at first i was enjoying it, watchiing all the movement, the chero, the extcsy feeling etc... but come to think of it, i realise i wont get the chance to dance like them, even though now im still holding onto some hope but i think i might not be able to. im afriad if i go learn now, my grades might drop and im afraid to go alone. lol. sound stupid? maybe. i wanted to go oschool to learn for so long, asked quite a number of my friends to acc me. some made broken promises, some at first say no then in the end found out they join without me and some just dont want. i think its just me bah.. cannot be evedryone around me like that. anyways, i guess i wont be learning it any time soon. starting to feel abit alone even when i know im not. i dont get much help from others when it comes to school work, my artwork and my extra learning. gosh. who knows i might be more alone then i though i was.....

Or

I might be feeling like what someone said. that because my past crushes, bestfriends and friends have hurt me so much that i now expected it with everyone. that i think that everyone will hurt me as much as before. then maybe i keep pushing others to the limit, to test them or something. i dont know why im doing all these. i hate being confuse..... haiis. i dont know what to think about this matter how to react. im hating all these